October 31st
Why wouldn’t Harry notice me? I mean, there I am, in plain view, and he wouldn’t notice me! If I danced in front of him naked, he still wouldn’t notice me!
Hermione gave me this diary for my B-day. YAY!!! Ron and Harry both pitched in to get me a necklace. The necklace has a single diamond. I know that Harry didn’t pitch in for me. It was because Ron was broke and wanted to get me something for my 16th B-day. If he had done it for love, wouldn’t he have asked me out yet?
So, I’m dating Dean Thomas instead. I don’t really love Dean, but he was so polite when he asked that I just couldn’t say no.
I have been dating Dean for two months, but I don’t have the heart to break up with him.
So, I have decided that I will break up with Dean tomorrow. I guess that is good, so we can go to the Halloween Ball together.
November 2nd
OMG, I can’t believe that I actually did that to Dean. I am such a complete idiot. Dean hates me and I hate myself. Maybe it was for the best. I want to kill myself.
November 3rd
I tried to kill myself yesterday, but Ron saw me, and took the knife away. He’s inferring with my plans.
Maybe, I should date Malfoy… yuck, I cannot believe that I actually thought that! The thought of Malfoy touching my lips with his lips is sickening!
Maybe, Harry would actually notice me! Yes, diary, I know that that is really unlikely, but a girl can dream.
Anyway, Harry has been kind of mean to me. It really hurts me, to know that when I woke up, the guy that I love is going to be mean to me.
November 4th
I feel abused, really abused. I saw Harry flirting with Hermione. Doesn’t she know how I feel about him? And I thought that she was my best friend. I hate her! Not really, it’s not her fault; it’s Harry’s. I hate him! No I love him. *Sigh*
Why doesn’t Hermione date Malfoy? He is so for her. Well, maybe not, but why does she have to take the one guy that I really love?
Anyway, Colin asked me out today. I didn’t want to hurt his feelings, but… I just couldn’t. He walked away sadly, and I ran up to him and said yes.
What was I thinking? I am way too affectionate. I should have said no. Well, it’s just one date; I’ll say no the next time he says.
Well, today in Charms, I looked outside and saw, for the second time, Harry and Hermione by the lake laughing and goofing around. Does Harry have no respect for himself? There he is, flirting with a girl who is betraying her best friend who is totally in love with the guy doing the flirting.
November 5th
Well, my date with Colin didn’t go too well. He took me to Madam Puddifoot’s. God, I hate that place! I went there with Michael. That son of an idiot, I am never going to talk to him again.
Anyway, Colin thought that I would like tea! I despise tea! It was way too sugary. I like sugar and all, but it was like coated in sugar. It was sweet. Colin was, not the tea. He kept on asking why I wouldn’t drink my tea. I wouldn’t answer, until he had annoyed so much that I burst. “It’s too sugary,” I shouted at him.
He backed away from me. I’m such a monster. Ginny, you are an idiot. I lost a friend. He was so scared that that he didn’t even ask for a second date. YAY!!!! So, I don’t have to say no. This is awesome.
Maybe, now that Harry’s knows that I am free, he will ask me out! Yes, Ginny, you are a genius!
November 6th
I guess that it wasn’t so awesome. Colin asked me out again before Transfiguration. Why does my world tumble right after I think that it is getting better?
I lied to Colin! I said that I was going out with Harry. Colin completely understood. God, why do I do this to myself? I told him that I was going out with Harry on Saturday. Stupid…
November 7th
I have got the perfect plan. I will say that Harry broke up with me today. So, then, Colin will understand that I am too broken-hearted to go on a date with him. YES!!!!! I am a genius. I’ll tell you how it goes tomorrow…
November 8th
It totally worked. Colin said that when I was ready, we could go out, but not before. Awesome!!
But, after one thing get good, another thing crashed. I saw Hermione and Harry by the lake again! Do they have no respect for themselves? Why would Hermione do this to me? I am her best friend. Don’t they know that Ron is totally in love with Herm? They’re evil. Why would they do that? Doesn’t Herm know how I feel about Harry? I’m never going to talk to them again!
Anyway, Michael asked me out today. Doesn’t he know what he did to me? I said no, of course, and went off to class. But, he followed me and kept on shouting at me. Jerk, how dare he? He kept on shouting why. Oddball. I screamed at him, “Go back and comfort Cho!”
God, he made me late for Potions. Snape took off 10 points. When I tried to explain, he just took off more points. Jerk.
My day was horrible. First, Harry. Then, Michael. Then, Snape. Grr. Could my day get any worst?
It could. When I told Hermione what I saw, she just said that it wasn’t that. I didn’t believe. I ended up yelling at her. Why? Why? Why? I am such an idiot. She just walked away. Jerk.
I am such a jerk. How could I? Write more tomorrow.
November 9th
Geez, Hermione won’t talk to me. When I got her to talk, she said she don’t want to be my friend anymore. Jerk. When I told her what I thought I saw, she understood.
I hate these stupid teachers. They pile up the homework like it is nothing. Devils. Jerks. My mum always said that I have colorful language, but she told me never to use it.
I wish I could have used everything that I had on Michael today. When the Gryffindors and Ravenclaws were going into History of Magic, he kept on asking me out, and I kept on saying no. Wouldn’t he take no for an answer? He just kept on asking and asking and asking. Jerk.
I can’t believe that he would do that to me! He hurt me when he broke up with me on the Quidditch pitch, because Gryffindor beat Ravenclaw. He was so not my type, and he never will be.
Can’t he get that through his thick skull? I don’t want him. Cho probably doesn’t either. That’s why he came back to me. Jerk.
November 10th
I don’t know why I couldn’t stop staring at Harry, but when he looks at me, I look away. Ever since I found out that Harry wasn’t flirting with Hermione, I can’t stop looking at him. He’s so cute without his glasses on. I love the way he moves.
Okay, I gotta stop staring at him. I can hear my mum’s voice, “It’s not nice to stare.” Who cares? I don’t.
Anyway, nothing really happened today. Expect the whole Harry thingy. More tomorrow.
November 11th
This day sucked. In Potions this morning, my potion blew up in my face. Potions is usually my good subject. Why me? Why? Why? Then, Snape took off points. God, why do you have to torture me this way?
In Care of Magical Creatures, a unicorn stabbed me in the stomach. Hospital Wing for me.
Madam Pomfrey was a pain. She made me stay the rest of the day. Jerk.
And, Michael asked me out again. He just won’t take no for an answer. I started calling him Michelle and told him to pull down his pants and show me he was a boy.
And he did. I burst out laughing. Ravenclaw got points off for that little stunt. That was the only good part of my day.
November 12th
Today was a great day that I have had in a while. In Transfiguration, I was the only one that was able to turn a badger into a pig. I am in an advanced Transfiguration class, so there was no Michael or Colin. Just Harry. I felt so free until I had to go to History of Magic. I would have to face Michael AND Colin. Jerks.
Why did they have to schedule the times like that? I felt really good, and then I feel really bad.
Michael tried it again. I ended up putting the Bat Boogey Curse on him. Jerk.
Harry still hasn’t asked me out yet. Maybe, he likes the strong, silent type. Maybe, I should try that…
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